CRO's Log - 1

Posted on 03 Jun 2015 @ 7:12pm by Lieutenant Oren Idris Ph.D.

418 words; about a 2 minute read

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Well....I'm the new Chief of Research.

Chief of Research.

[sigh]

It's a great opportunity. I mean, one of the reasons I signed a contract to work with Starfleet was the fact that they always had the best resources for scientific research.

I'd love to say I was confused about how I felt about having to wear this uniform but I'm not. I hate having to wear a uniform... I mean, it's not the uniform. Well, it is the uniform, but only a little bit. I mean...look at this thing.

[sigh]

What I mean to say is...I don't like that this new position requires me to be an officer. I'm not a soldier, and I find nothing noble in being one. And, honestly, I don't care if any Starfleet officer will argue and say that Starfleet officers aren't soldiers per se. They'll say they're primarily explorers.

[snort]

Please...

The Dominion war told me all about how Starfleets aren't soldiers. It was why I resigned in the first place.

But I suppose any who want victory will find some reason their cause merits exception.

Still, I do know that, despite my new rank, I am still not one of them. Nor will I ever be, I think. I mean...even my pips are different. I suppose that's their way of saying 'We shall hold you to the same standards as the rest, but you're not really one of us.' That's probably for the best. I've made my decision and now I have to stick to it, and do my best.

I don't know what I'll do about my situation with Kohl. I don't know what it is about the man that makes my teeth itch, but there is something. Every time I speak to him, I get this uneasy feeling in my stomach I can't explain, like speaking to a parent with a bad temper. Like I'm just waiting for him to snap and that feeling seeps into me and makes me unsettled.

Maybe I'm just feeling what he feels and that sets me off....I don't know. I wish I knew how El Aurian empathy works, but I don't. I just know that whenever Kohl is around me, my skin feels one size too small.

[sigh]

But there's nothing to do about it now except bear with it....

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