"Xanth Personal Log, Stardate 67333.2..."

Posted on 11 Oct 2014 @ 10:23pm by Lieutenant JG Cyrin Xanth

538 words; about a 3 minute read

"...If you would have told me that I would have been glad to see the backs of my Vulcan shipmates at some point when I first came on board the Se'lok, I would have likely laughed. The Vulcans were, and are, such a fascinating people. There is a depth of compassion to them that many people never get the opportunity to see, and their art and literature are second to none in my opinion. They have some of the greatest minds the Federation has to offer and a surprising spiritualist beliefs at times as well. Their physical impressiveness aside, it is their society along with humans that has set an example for so many races in the Alpha Quadrant."

"But to live with them in close quarters for so long is a different story. At times I thought their incessant logic and denial of emotion was going to drive me crazy! Now I know I'm not the most expressive person usually, but you'd think they would lighten up sometime. Not once did Chief Science Officer Commander S'eys give me any sort of slack, and no offense to all the great lab technicians out there in the fleet that was not what I signed up for. I'm a scientist, not a terran monkey to pull some lever."

"At least that's all over now. I've just arrived on Starbase 84 to begin my first shore leave in nearly two years before I move on to my next posting. That's right, I got it! The USS Galileo is scheduled to arrive in twenty-seven days, and I'll be joining her as an astrophysics officer. I can't explain how proud I am to get this chance; I was sure given how impressive the Nova Class design is for scientific research that there would be no way I would make it through the competition. Whoever it was who had the final say on my transfer, thank you!"

"Things are going to be different on the Galileo, I can feel it. I'm going to try to put myself forward more, speak up, offer my thoughts. I know I'm timid and I hold back, and I know I have a lot to learn about how to get along with people, but I want to start to try. I've seen how the Vulcans live, cut off from the kinds of connections I long to have. I want to make friends, have people that I can talk to, laugh with, or talk about things that frighten me. Maybe someday I'll meet a man patient enough to let me move at my own pace too."

"Mostly, I just want to start by making a good impression on my commanding officer and my peers. If I can do that, maybe I can start to figure things out. I'm still as confused today as I was after the joining but I feel the need to make some connections so strongly I could almost cry about it. Lonely, I'm sure, but the Galileo is bound to have all sorts of emotional beings on it...so for the first time since I graduated I'm started to feel a little hopeful too."

"Computer, end log."

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