Cheese Day

Posted on 02 Dec 2024 @ 4:07am by Lieutenant JG Sofie Ullswater

445 words; about a 2 minute read

I understand that in certain circumstances a personal log, something that we as officers are encouraged to keep, can be opened up. If say there were an official investigation into an accident or perhaps a murder...

I can feel in the wind that something is on it's way. I am somewhat scared.

I have been conducting interviews with the crew over the past few days, building up a picture of the events that occurred in the other timeline. From this as well as a picture of the events I've got a fairly good idea of how these intrusive memories are being experienced by my colleagues. Most have been describing them as vivid flashbacks, often accompanied by a strong sense of unease or deja-vu.

I have not experienced anything that I would describe as a vivid flashback. This is something that I have had to lie about. There has been a lot I have had to lie about these last few days.

Instead of the flashbacks I have begun to experience visions of a creature from the cold station, specifically something resembling the corpse we discovered in main engineering. It is the same creature which I had visions of during my contact with the station: the flayed man. I would dearly like to believe that this is a figment of my imagination, that this is not actually a lingering presence of the station. Thankfully in the interviews with the other survivors of contact with the monster none of them have mentioned any similar kind of visions. I think it is just me.

I can not let it be discovered that I am still suffering the effects of the cold station contact. The consequences of such an admission have been made very clear. So what am I to do? It's almost funny, Warraqium did the Kobiyashi Maru yesterday but I'm not sure I have any better of a handle on how to deal with this no-win scenario that I am facing.

At some point things may fall apart. I can not hold the outward appearance of tranquillity forever. The pain in my hands has been getting worse again. I don't know what might happen. I hope that nothing will. But if you find yourself watching this recording within the next few weeks Tarin know that I saw it coming but there was nothing any of you could have done. You put a lot of trust in me and I have repaid that with deception. I'm sorry.

You'll be a good captain.

Now I have agreed to meet Lamar for lunch. It's a cheese day today. I will save my opinions on cheese for a different personal log.

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