Musings

Posted on 30 May 2022 @ 5:16pm by Chief Warrant Officer 2 Oliver Sylver

388 words; about a 2 minute read

Computer, personal Log, Chief Warrant Officer Oliver Sylver.

It has been awhile since I had sat down and done this. Maybe because I have always used personal logs to either record important things in my job, or to vent. I have not had the occasion to do either.

My job remains the same, although I am finding myself more and more on the bridge. What is not the same is the change in atmosphere. The new Command is different than serving under Captain Saalm. It reminds me of more my days as a Marine, during the war. The reason it reminds me of during the war is...

I can't remember the last time the shifts have been this long, and the workload this heavy. We feel like a skeleton crew, trying to do the job of all hands. The imposed structure onto the scientists here seem to have caused friction. I believe that if we had been a full crew, it would not have been as bad. But we are all tired and with that comes a lot short tempers.

Very short tempers. I saw a crewman throw a PADD across the room and then start crying.

In my personal life, I try to be quiet when I get in. My new shift pattern means Verity is affected. I try not to wake him, but he always does. I try not to worry him, because I know he has a lot of worries already. People go to him with their problems. And I won't bring any of those back home to him, not if I can help it. Until it becomes a real thing, it isn't worth mentioning. Maybe I am being silly for it, he is strong enough to handle anything. I just don't want to bring things that do not matter home with me, so I leave them behind before I walk in.

I couldn't be luckier to have a man like that. I have been thinking of proposing. But out here, with this mission, it feels unplanned and desperate. When we come back closer to home, then I will. I will get him a ring, a quaint tradition but on I wish to honour.

Because he deserves it, and he is worth it.

I just hope I can be worthy of him.

Computer, end log.

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