Getting Ready

Posted on 30 Apr 2013 @ 4:48am by Lieutenant Jared Nicholas

213 words; about a 1 minute read

Its been days since I last saw Ansen and I think he has lost interest in me. He has too much going on. I really don't like to be pushed away like that. I mean I know he has issues and maybe I pushed too hard.

It was lust at first sight, he is a really good looking man, and despite the fact that I got in such deep shit over it didn't really bother me. Well It bothered me that I exercised such poor judgement and suffered the consequences, but it didn't bother me that we did what we did.

I knew it was way too early to say that there was something long term there, but I would have liked to see if anything could have developed. i tried to let him know that, but he would have nothing of it.

It hurt for him to walk out on me. Not so much because he rejected me, but because he was in so much pain. Still I'm not going to try to push myself on him. If he doesn't want me.

I think after we get back from this away mission I am going to give him one more shot and then I'm going to expand my horizons as they say.

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